Another better day phew! Even though its been a very busy one gradually getting puppets made and Ive only just sat down. But maybe maybe Im close to being sort of half way through all the blumming puppet making.
Had a good friend I don’t see often make a tiny plan to come visit me which gave a little more fuel to the hope and happiness I know must be somewhere inside me. Its really done me some good and I have something lovely and positive to look forward to and keep me going.
Only just remembered that I Was up for an hour last night head boiling with negative thoughts and my attempts to challenge them. And in that odd clarity that comes around 2am I just decided to not listen to the negative thoughts. Now this sounds really obvious and I fully expect me to forget this in a few days. And sure this advice Ive dismissed in the past.
The thing that usually stops me from completely ignoring the negative thoughts or dismissing them or looking for the opposite positive thoughts is the possibility that they may well be right or they could lead to an inflated ego or being deluded how good things are.
As much as they are difficult to deal with, would I be as driven or creative without a bit of negativity or a need to do better?
However I decided to give myself a break. And maybe not feel I HAVE to challenge my thoughts like a lawyer with evidence and reasonable doubt and just give it a big fat “NOPE!” And give myself permission to maybe be a bit too positive because my version of too positive is probably just regular positivity?