Me trying to sort out my negative and positive thoughts / sort out my self esteem
Weekend was intense with rehearsals and I can feel my physical symptoms REALLY kicking in.
Headaches thumping and I can feel my stomach starting to twist and turn. And fatigue is starting to pull at the edges of my eyes. It feels horrible and I feel horrible.
This is a major sign from my body to slow down and rest which Ive been ignoring from my brain because I have so much work to do and the number of projects and puppets that need making dance before me in my mind and I cant ignore them when I try to rest.
My instinct is to always push forward, that the more work now the less I’ll have to do later but that is rarely the case and I dont know how I manage to convince myself everyday
Had a real attempt at a self care day on Sunday but really felt the day was made up of stuff I needed to do for other people and not myself. However I did do a meal plan for the week so I have that bit of consistency in place and I wont have the prospect of dinner time hang over me ever day. Also had one of those fabled Self Care baths 🛀