Here is Dug looking Zelda Breath of the Wild levels of majestic.
So I missed yesterday‘s post but that was because I’ve been working really hard all day and I didn’t think it would be in the spirit of the recovery posts to push myself too far or put myself down for missing it so here is in the morning!
i’ve been reading more of Losing Connections the book that I mentioned yesterday and whats really interesting is that it looks at other factors that cause anxiety and depression not just brain chemistry.
Its one of those books that hits you really hard somewhere like in your chest and in your stomach as you read it
One of the first causes that it goes into is a loss of meaningful work and I realise this is quite applicable to me. Again I got hit in the gut with thie chapter! Work has always been a very difficult thing to me to get right. I’ve always struggled with finding the right type of work and that allows me to balance my mental health especially with my physical symptoms. ESPECIALLY with the spectrum of anxiety nausea I feel om a day to day basis. It doesnt always happen but Feeling the fear that you may throw up in the middle of a normal meeting or a workshop is excruciating.
But I really want to work.
And I have always been encouraged to make it meaningful. But getting it right and balanced takes a lot of negotiating with myself.
I understand when I do stuff that means something or makes a difference I feel so they so so so much better about myself and myself.
Luckily today I was in a wonderful meeting about a wonderful project that has combined all of the things I love and all of the things that I want to hell with. I’m so excited about this and knowing that this is something that will help me as well as help others is indescribable.