Is okay to start again?
Course it is. Thats what recovery is all about.
I really wanted to keep this up and I feel a bit bad that I let it slide. It came frm a mash-up of turning 28 (I know its young!) working hard and finding more work to do and my self esteem crashing very suddenly. It was a little horrible and I felt a wee bit alone. I know that by posting ever day Im making myself quite vulnerable and maybe that was a little too much. Its stupid but I felt both a pressure to show how difficult the day to day of anxiety is but not to look like Im sweating the small stuff. I was worried I wasn’t ‘ill enough’ which is very odd when you’re focus is on recovery.
But haha this also shows just how bloody irrational anxiety can be. How it twists proactive steps to recovery and connection to something to be ashamed of.
But I think its important to keep on talking especially as people have told me its been helpful.
So I start again. Pick myself up and keep going. Cos thats all I can do